Made it - maybe

Have heard I have been accepted by University to do Foundation degree in Education Administration, went for first taster session last night, very scary. It is so hard with to find positive things about me and we had to do some stuff in reflective writing. Degree is part-time, takes 3 years with option to top up to BA Hons. Will I still be alive in 3 years - who knows? Today I had check up by surgeon - she says all is well , may have to have scan before next visit to her.

Head still mad, trying to do everything - have been to Aqua class, scrapbook class and textile class. Trying so hard to keep busy and get J out of my mind, she just won't go. I think University application is absolute madness on my part - why oh why did I apply? Reading is so difficult - writing will be harder still I'm sure. Mark says I'm stubborn - some people say I'm determined so maybe these things I can't recognise in myself will get me through.

Made some more cards to sell for Breast Cancer Research - photo ones this time.

Flying towards Hell

Well I have my book in my hands - decision now whether to make public on blurb.com or not. I have had one positive response from someone I asked to look at it for me and they even bought a copy!

Book is titled 'Flying towards Hell' after much heart-searching to get just the right title. So many I chose were actually already published. This comes from a phrase in one of my poems.

Blurb is brilliant really - so easy to use and produce a quite professional looking book. I made a black/white copy too just cos I coudl and cos it's cheaper. If i do sell it I am giving all proceeds to Breakthrough Breast Cancer. Talking of charity I have made another £60 through selling cards at work for Breast Cancer Research charities.

My head is going mad, not sleeping, weeping in car, so much to do, so little time now - scary days.